It’s nights like these where I lay in bed and just wonder. I wonder if I’ll ever actually find someone who cares or if it’s possible to even be happy with yourself. I honestly hate myself and hate who I am. And the scariest part is that I have no idea if that’s normal or not. I don’t know what normal is anymore like I don’t know if what or how I’m feeling is normal and I feel like I’m not living right. I hate everything about me and I just wanna move really far away and start fresh. I just want new people a new life and I want to actually be something other than the piece of shit that I currently am.